so the ex I had left back in may just had open heart surgery.

even if he was an abusive man, why do i still worry for him?

Im the type of person who does not wish ill on anyone...

and i told his daughter to let me know if he is ok or not... but its been 2 days... and im worried sick..

i do not want to call because his new gf dont exactlly like each other...

ontop of that my kuu girl is sick... UGH!! i want to crawl into a hole...

I'm having the same issue with my mother. My mom and I have no love for each other. None. But she was just diagnosed with... Some kind of strange breast cancer... Crap. And it's been eating me alive. I hate that woman. But the thought of her suffering is killing me.

Link Tree

Sorry to hear it for both of you.

I know the feeling though. My ex husband, the day we went before the judge to get the divorce, told me that his mom was terminal with brain and lung cancer. I would like to remind those playing the home game, I despise my ex husband with every fiber of my being and if he magically disappeared one day I wouldn't exactly care. But the fact of the matter is, he was getting divorced from me and at the same time dealing with that blow. And as much as I despise him, I don't wish that on anyone. The timing was awful and I did feel for his situation. I wouldn't wish that on anyone. It's that whole I have a moral compass thing. You can despise them for what they did to you but still feel a bit of humanity toward them because you feel for the situation not so much the individual.

Huggs chao~

Still no word, called the hospital and no ones telling me anything. My anxiety is thru the roof, ugh.

I feel for you all.

I have the same feelings toward my ex boyfriend. We've not long called the relationship off for good but his grandmother is dying and his mum was diagnosed with breast cancer just before we parted ways in June.. Even though I don't talk to him and hate him for cheating on me so many times, I think about him every day and I'm struggling to move on and allow my feelings toward my new fellow to progress due to this.

It's definitely, as Abs said, a moral compass situation and it's very sweet of you to say that you do not wish ill on anyone. His family have probably got a lot on their minds at the moment boo.. I'm sure they will contact you soon. I know it's easier said than done but try and keep calm and not let your anxiety get the better of you.

**UPDATE.

he was touch and go all weekend. thus I was not able to contact any of them.

it REALLY sucks, and I am sad I cant be there to care for him. But like my family reminds me, if I had stayed he would continue to do the things he did, or worse one of us would be in jail and the other dead x_x thats how bad it got.

MEH~ I am happy he is alive still, im just like grrr sometimes all I want to do is forget and move along x__x

It just shows how big your heart is no matter how nasty people are to you.  I am glad he is OK and you finally got some answers to help curb the worry.  Open heart surgery is scary!  I hope little kuu gets to feeling better soon! ♥

I know how it feels to have an ex boyfriend who was terrible. Abusive, selfish, just completely awful. And I still cared about him :/